I met my younger self for coffee today
She was 5 minutes early and I was 15 minutes late
She wore all black and a pink scarf and I wore the same. Sweet coincidence, I thought.
She ordered mochacinno frappe and I ordered iced latte with no sugar
She shared her recent travel to Bali with her friends. I told her I live there now.
She then told me she spent her whole night crying, she felt unlovable.
I told her that someone’s lack of capacity to love you does not mean you are unlovable.
You can move mountains or swim the deepest ocean for them, still they won’t meet you where you are.
Not because you are unlovable but maybe because they don’t know how to do with all that just yet
I also told her that I am with someone that makes me feel loved & appreciated
She said she felt so clueless. I said me too,
I guess it’ll always be a part of life. Figuring out how life works should not be our endeavor
She then told me she’s happy to be outside cos her dad drove her crazy
I told her to cherish time with him cos I missed mine
She asked me, “ does it get easier with time?“, to which I replied, “ yes, but it’s always there, you just have to greet it when it comes, like an old friend.”
We hugged goodbye
I hope we can have coffee together again soon.